I never realized. I know I’ve always was lucky to have you. But did you ever realize how lucky were you to have me? I can watch endlessly all the people in love, the good, the bad, the in between; But to me, nothing compares to what we ever had. You and I, we were something we never ever dreamt of ever having and ever happening ever again. If you can tell me that it isn’t true, tell me now. Tell me, look into my eyes, and tell me that you and I were something that not even the stars, constellations, the whole entire galaxy can ever re-create. We were more than happy. We were perfect.
I lay every night, trying to forget you. I lay awake at night though, the nights we kissed, the nights we fought, the nights we almost left, the nights we laughed. I always wondered, of all the times I told you that all we needed was to stay “together”, how things would be if you were just here for one more night, next to me, in my arms. I would never let you go ever. I would tell you how beautiful you are, your cute little smile, the silly things you said, the wonderful thoughts you would come up with, the way you always tell me things are okay because I had you and nothing else in this world would matter to me. I didn’t need anyone else. All I wanted was to be next to you, tumbling down and around our own world, under the stars we built, in the dreams we made strictly for each other.
I know we don’t talk much anymore.. I wish you knew how much I still miss you every single day. My heart, my mind, my body, my soul, still, thinks, wishes, wonders, wanders, looks, longs, love you.. there still a hole in my heart, through out the year, waiting for you to either to repair it and move on, or fill it so it will be able to let go..
I just wish you would pick up..September 21, 2012